New Year, Same Old Me

I’m a little late to the resolution game this year, which is pretty appropriate as a reflection of 2016. In all honesty, I didn’t follow through on a lot of things I planned to do this year. While some goals were met intermittently, others were completely missed or forgotten about. 2016 was a year of transition and change. Through that transition a lot of wonderful, positive things and changes happened, but some things were also left behind.

I’ve taken some time to reflect on all this.

Overall, 2016 was an amazing year. Although Jack was born in December of 2015, I really came into my own as a mother in 2016. I grew as a person, I developed confidence I have never had, I felt unmatched joy in watching my son grow.

2016 also had it’s challenges, which I’m guessing everyone can relate to. Early on, I went back to work after a short maternity leave. That was one of the most difficult things I have faced, not just in 2016, but in life. I felt tremendous pain and anxiety with leaving my son, and although that faded throughout the year, it hasn’t left me.

2016 was a year of high highs and low lows.

There is a part of me that dislikes the “new year, new me” mentality. If I really want to make changes, if I feel passionately enough, then why didn’t I make changes a month ago? Two months ago? The other part of me still feels hopeful. Hopeful that with a new year comes new opportunities, new intentions. Hopeful that goals will be set, and things that I am doing purposefully become habit. Long lasting habit, not for a few weeks habit.

I know myself enough to know that my good intentions aren’t always enough. Unfortunately, I don’t know myself enough to know what I need to be doing differently to make those intentions enough. So that whole “new year, new me” thing is very inaccurate for me.

Right now, it’s “new year, same old me”. Same old me who may fall short, who may get distracted after a few weeks and go back to old habits. Same old me who is still very hopeful, who has ideals for herself.

When I set my goals for this year and month, I want to be intentional with how I will approach my goals differently. Like I said, I don’t know what I need to be doing differently to make positive change last, but I will build some experimentation into my goal setting.

I’m going to end this post with one small goal. My goal right now is to have my goals planned, written out, and posted within a week of this post being published. I think that will give me adequate time to continue reflecting and come up with a game plan moving forward.

I’m feeling motivated, I just made another cup of coffee, so let’s get to work!

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24 Comments

  1. Love this post! I’ve been a mom for over 2 years and up to now, it’s still hard for me to leave my kids in daycare. Every day, I still wish I don’t need to work and just stay at home, play with them, and lose my sanity the whole day. Lol. Right now, my goal is to relax more and sleep more.

    Belle | One Awesome Momma

  2. Nothing says resolutions must be made in January. I agree, if I’m passionate enough about the change, I don’t need to wait until a new month, or even a new year.
    There’s nothing wrong with New Year, Same You.

  3. I agree! If we’re that passionate about change, we don’t need a New Year to do it. Good luck with your goals, and remember that there is nothing wrong with the “same old you”:)

  4. I was just reflecting on the same thing today. Hiring a nanny with my daughter was the most painful experience ever. I wanted to to spend every moment with her, but I couldn’t manage working and watching her. I think the key is to be willing to accept that we will not quite know for sure what motherhood will bring, and that even if we wish something, we may not be able to successfully work it into our lives.

  5. I love hearing your motivation – it inspires me! My goal too is to be more intentional in all I do. 2106 was not easy for my family, so I am passionate about making 2017 better!

  6. I can totally see where you’re coming from, Kate! When I had my first child, your world is turned upside down and inside out – I learned so much about myself through the process and still in progress.

    You keep doing what works for you and your family. You are stronger and braver than you know, mama 🙂

  7. I love this! My husband always makes fun of me when I make plans to start something on a Monday or when a new month/year starts. He says days are arbitrary and a new day means nothing because you’re still the same person as you were yesterday. I totally feel him when he says it but the overly optimistic side of me acts as though he’s not speaking. So yeah, new year- same me is right!! I love it.

  8. I wanted to do short term goals this year, because I always get distracted. I also like who I am for once, so I don’t really want to change myself. I am okay with being same old me. I hope you get your goal of writing out goals 😛

    1. Our world is constantly pushing us to do better or improve something. I LOVE that you like who you are now! I wish more people felt that way about themselves!

  9. I love that you are trying and that at honestly all we can do as moms. We try our very best. Congrats on making the most of last year. I’m sure this year will be full of ups and downs too, but you’ll be stronger than you were last year. Great post and good luck with your goals!

    1. Thanks so much, Alesia! You’re so right, every year will have its ups and downs. As long as we keep learning from them!

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